I woke up surprised and disappointed
to find out I was still me,
Last night should've killed me.
Took a shower couldn't scrub it off
Tried to scream, I could only cough
I can't trust myself to be my own friend.
Exhausted by the effort it takes to breathe,
The Whole world is against me
That's what I belive,
don't waste your empathy on me
[Chorus]
I'm through puttin one foot in front of the other
I'm do wanna run for cover
From the moment I wake up til I'm
starin at the ceiling trying to sleep
I wonder if I have a soul to keep.
Voices in my head will not turn off
There's a heavy weight on top
of my chest today,
I don't want it to go away because,
the moment I let down my guard,
life will hit me twice as hard
My mistake, I thought I could have
just one day off
From pushing boulders up steep hills,
playin in traffic for cheap thrills
I don't know what to do
that's why I'm tellin you that
[Chorus]
Sometimes there's nothing on my mind
but everything at one time
Find me sliding backwards down
to where I don't want to be found
Stop with these tests give me some rest
My heart is beating right out of my chest
I do believe I have a soul to keep.
Get out of my way
I'm coming your way
And I'm more important
Don't let your mouth write a check you can't cash
'Cause your body can't afford it
Don't you know who I am?
You'd better give a damn
I'm with the band, man.
Bask in my glory
And tell me a story
Of how great you think I am
You'd better make room for me
I'm coming through with my ego
"Man your band is really rad"
"Yeah, I know"
My ego puts you down
My ego pumps me up
My ego tells me why I am so great
... And why you suck.
Workin' the door
I've got status galore
And a heavy flashlight
Don't give me no shit
Cause I'll bust your lip
And the clubs on my side.
You paid for music
But you might leave with bruises
For dancing at all
You must be a sucker
If you paid to get in
To see 30FeetTall
You'd better make room for me
I'm coming through with my maglite
"Sure, I'll let you meet the band"
"If you're cool"
My ego lets you down
My ego pumps me up
My ego tells me why I am so great
... And why you suck
When my dad was 25,
he had a helpless 2.5.
And our city was still growing,
and they had no way of knowing
that this place would turn to shit
and they'd have to hand it to their kids.
Enter the 25 year old me
whose eyes still have yet to see
what's to gain
from minimum wage
Productivity!
And I'm still learning to barely survive.
Getting used to scraping by.
So what's it like to not be broke?
Where'd the money go?
Don't ask me 'cause I don't know.
So where'd the money go?
Well don't ask me 'cause I don't know!
But the old regime is living well,
and I'm running out of things to sell out to!
Kid, I hate to have to fuck somebody hard,
or you compromise your spirit,
or you commercialize your art.
And if you only live for cash,
well then you can kiss my ass,
because you are the problem here!
Am I making myself clear?
Am I making myself clear?
So what's it like to not be broke?
Where'd the money go?
Don't ask me 'cause I don't know.
So what's it like to not be broke?
Where'd the money go?
Don't ask me 'cause I don't know.
Where'd the money go?
Don't ask me 'cause I don't know. [x2]
Back in the day you say you had it made
Hanging out all night and getting laid
All the colours had shown brighter
And your heart was so much lighter
Back in the day you say things weren't so lame
Now everybody seems to be the same
There's nothing happy here
And I don't think you're thinking clear
Your attitude is self-defeating
Your history's not worth repeating
Your life was just as lame back then
As you say it is now
Your rose coloured glasses deceive you
Reminisce all night
I'm not listerning to you
Cause 5 years from now will be the same old story anyhow
Back in they day you were a whiney little fuck
You hated the whole world for your bad luck
Your situation sucked you didn't change it
Now you tell a story but you rearrange it
Back in the day your rut wasn't so deep
That is the memory that you choose to keep
As you grow older it gets deeper
Try to climb out but the walls are steeper
Your attitude is self-defeating
Your history's not worth repeating
Your life was just as lame back then
As you say it is now
Your rose coloured glasses deceive you
Reminisce all night
I'm not listerning to you
Cause 5 years from now will be the same old story anyhow
You've got a life to live right now
You've got a self to build somehow
Trying to avoid the future?
Are you just afraid of failure?
I won't listern to your stories when
I see you've been killing time again
Your attitude is self-defeating
Your history's not worth repeating
I get knocked down
I get back up
But I'm not gonna run away.
I've got too much to think about
to even try to hide
So when my life gets way too big
Well fuck it, that's my life.
If you wanna dance
You gotta pay the band
What once was hard to understand
Is something I've accepted
As a condition to this life
THE TRUTH WILL CHANGE AS SOON AS YOU FEEL ORGANIZED INSIDE
But who am I to give you direction anyway?
Stupid me trying to speak but stuttering
You see for yourself, or you fuck yourself
Ida know nothing no more.
There are times when I feel like it's time
To hold my nose and shut my mouth
(shut your mouth shit-head)
Cause people talk so much shit
You see it on their teeth
When they smile
When they talk
The conversation stinks
I don't talk too loud
(not like I used to)
The more I see the more I think
Experience breaks me down to
A lever that helps me recognize
And see things as they be
I can study what I see
And what It means to me
But who am I to give you direction anyway?
Stupid me trying to speak but stuttering
You see for yourself, or you fuck yourself
Ida know nothing no more.
They never knew that I existed
'Til they saw something they didn't like
Now they try to drag me down
With all their rumours and their words of spite
Though it bums me out a little
It don't matter too much what they say
Cause it's never said to my face
But they keep on talkin' anyway
You respect would be nice
But I don't need it
Disapprove of my life
But I still live it.
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